The High Dive
I have been in the deep murky waters.
I have been in the deep murky waters.
Gasping for breath,
over my head,
choking…
Through the pain I struggled.
Reaching for the edge,
grasping,
finally pulling myself out.
After a time of clearing my lungs,
clearing my eyes,
I gaze upward,
back toward the high dive.
Fear keeps me apprehensive.
Desire pushes me forward.
Back to the ladder I climb,
each rung a battle,
each rung a fight.
Many times I have reached the top.
Many times I have looked over.
Memories
and anxieties turn me back.
‘til I hear a small voice in the pool.
A pool of repression,
A pool of repression,
a pool of disenchantment,
and it coaxes me
to the tip of the board once again.
I look over,
and the water is not so dark.
The water looks calm and warm
and friendly.
Resistance recedes,
and I bend my knees to jump.
29oct01
j. david bliley